People who know me, know that when I listen to music, I only listen to ‘quality’ music. Why be sinned for something that is not worth being sinned for I always say?
Believe it or not, the genres of music that attract me are Opera, Celtic and Country.

Did your jaw drop yet?

I may sound like a 60 something year old, but the lyrics are everything.


A song dear to my heart
Reba McEntire & Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CswHrm8k-4U

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

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It breaks my heart every time I listen to this song, remember above when I said the lyrics mean everything to me? Well, the lyrics here do.
It describes something sensitive I have personally been through ‘mentally’. When I say mentally I mean:
No I am not married. Therefore, I have not been beaten by my partner -
To make a point VERY clear, I have NEVER been beaten -
But,
Have I been struck down and beaten emotionally? Yes
Have I been through such a terrible friendship experience that literally felt like someone had whacked me a knuckle sandwich? Yes
Three years down the line am I still affected by it? Yes
The thing is, friendships end, end very very very badly, but memories last forever.
Do I want my memories to be erased? Yes

A quote from the lyrics:
“Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid”

That is the aftermath of leaving something so bad from the beginning too late.


Genuine Advice I received from a precious someone a few days ago:
“Never try fixing someone, advise them once, advise them twice, advise three times, if nothing happens, just leave. It is not your job to ‘fix’ this person, it is their job.”

Thank you very much for the most valuable advise, I just wish I could show you how valuable it is to me xx

I entered the friendship trying to fix, kept on trying to ‘fix’ the entire time. Now I know, that was wrong, everything was wrong from the beginning. We were never meant to be.