A sacred place for me, and only me, to express myself..
عرض للطباعة
A sacred place for me, and only me, to express myself..
A day of silent sorrow..
With the passing of ones life..
Comes the end of a chapter, of an untold story..
It is there where I see.. the things you cannot see..
A silent whisper.. of a soul that no longer exists..
I know you cannot understand me..
But that’s not the point.. its never been the point
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I wake up this morning.. promising myself.. that i will tell you
A secret.. only few know..
a general secret.. which was not suposed to be a secret in the first place..
but nature took its course.. and reality was turned into a 'secret'
when you see me.. and I see you.. i always want to spill it out..
but yet again.. because it turned into a secret.. I cannot
For the sake of it.. for the sake of us.. wait on me..and wait for it
lets wait.. for this secret.. to turn back to reality
A problem I always seem to have with Human Beings
They never take you for who you are, but for whom they think you are
To my One and Only
Thank you for puting your faith in me
Thank you for believing in me
Thank you for letting me become me
Thank you for letting me dream
M-
This world lacks Originality
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hmph, no wonder why i deteste copy-cats
I'd truuuuuuuly appreciate it.. if you stop copying me
If I could turn time back, i would choose the days when you and I were inseprable, the days when you knew what i wanted to say, before i even said it. If I could turn time back, i would choose the day where our friendship was at its best.
Dear S, Oh I miss you so much:frown: If you only knew how much
It happened over a few years ago and i decided not to discuss it with anyone. Today, a few years later, they still try to 'know what happened'. But, I just don't want to talk about it, why is it so hard to understand? ahhhhh
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God blessed me from the day I was born with a Father like you. You are Honest, Brave, Adventurous, Intelligent and most importantly, full of LOVE. You made us grow into ourselves and be seen as we are and not as other people want us to be. you allowed us to explore and do things no one has ever done. Because of you, I am a better person. You are my Hero:fa41:
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P.S. I Love You
?Why do I always want what I can't have
Walk with me when u need Company..
Talk to me when u Feel all alone..
Trust me when ur Heartbeats more..
Think of me when u need a True Friend..
Like me...Like me..Like me.
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.I sometimes feel like i'm walking on an Endless Road. No Begining. No End
Philanthropy
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" Philanthropy is the act of donating money, goods, services, time or effort (often referred to as time, talent or treasure) to support a charitable cause, usually over an extended period of time and with a defined objective"
Wikipedia -
I wish to be a philanthropist when i grow up :)
Thursday September Eleventh
A life changing event and day.. Hopfully for the better:10:
Whoever said dreams don't come true doesn't know a thing. I can tell you, that this morning, my dream came true.
P.S. DREAM BIG!!! You won't regret it
Because of a TYPO, my world came crumbling down. However, the one thing many people don't know, is that they DON'T KNOW
.I step into my glass [box] screaming, shouting and crying. Take a step out, and act like nothing happened
.Only when you give me facts will you be able to grab my attention
and say GoodBye to useless blabber
and someone finally said it. Its up to me to either take it the right way or the other way. A decision, me myself can make and then conduct. They say life is hard, but the truth is, it can be hard when you don't try hard enough.
Say goodbye to the old days... say hello to the upcoming days
its hard to be put in an awkward position, and to be stalked by someone you dislike:wacko:
To PEACE-
Lately, due to the nature of my work, I have been constantly busy with writing documents that tend to be viewed by many people, and the best thing about it is that it is all about my ideas, visions and most importantly my words. I have been complemented on many occasions ever since and I must say it has given me ideas and put a new ‘challenge’ in my mind. I must admit, I really do enjoy writing and expressing my thoughts and feelings. It does not really matter whether someone reads it or not, as long as I have written it and published it, it gives me a sense of relief.
I tend to enjoy writing and speaking formally in both Arabic and English, I tend to speak better formally than informally and I believe that it is more elegant and classy for a girl to do so. Moreover, there is an undiscovered beauty when it comes to ‘formality’. I must thank my dear mother as without her I would not be able to speak English the way I do, nor write proper well-written letters (let alone have common sense!).
I love writing, I really do! And I hope to take it to the next step and ‘hopefully’ publish a novel one day….. ‘hopefully’
And they say… “when there is a WILL, there is a WAY”
Funny how the people that crush you are the first to ask you " are you allright?". It's strange how some minds work
Hmph, and how long am i expected to cope with such mantalities? What a life I say, What a life
Why do i always seem to get sick at the worse time ever? Damn it
it ain't easy keeping a smile on my face when i just feel blue, oh so bluuuuuuuuuuuuuue. Effffffft
This depression has hit me hard, i dont want to talk to anyone, i dont want to see anyone, i dont want to do anything, i just want to pull my blanket ontop of my head and sulk.. i need to sulk.. literally :(
let alone what just happened a few minutes ago, SERIOUSLY?! Do i really need to know?? Never did i know that things could and get this bad and lead to such a thing.
What do you do, or wait, let me rephrase, what am i EXPECTED to do, if someone i love so dearly just isn't that same someone anymore? mmmm
:(
Why is it so hard for people to just stay the way they are or become better, why does everything have to take a toll to the worse? It's just not nice, not nice at all
I've had a headache since yesterday afternoon, which turned into a horrible migrane this morning, and with a large dose of medicine seemed to go back to a headache. Im in pain, not in the mood, and, fed up! So please leave me alone
Question: What do you do if you came upon pieces of information that have informed you that a person you onced loved is on the wrong track? Do you ignore, or do you do something about it? I choose to ignore
I Love writing in here, becuase although what i say is public, its kept private :) It's a shame how no-one seems to have any interest in english literature besides me LOL
Imagine being graded on expressing your emotions on the changes you have to go through and how these changes have developed you as a person. Then somehow relate it to organisational change? What an odd thing to be graded on!
To tell you the truth, i have No Problem in expressing my feelings and pouring out my heart to a stranger, but i am not comfortable with what happens after that. Do you know why? Because i am going to have to EXPLAIN my feelings to my professor! Do i really want to be dicussing what goes on in my head and heart to my professor??? Hell no! Due to this freaky assignment, i am finding it hard to express my feelings because i know that im going to have to justify them later! erghhhhhhhhhh
I don't know why, but i just crave fame:fa34:
Mentally, Physically and Emotionally… Exhausted
I am glad that my Display Picture (DP) totally describes who I am, just incase i change anytime soon, it says "& she lies in the grass staring up at the sky, wondering what happened to her life." Totally, utterly describes yours truly xx
I love the Oasis, but it saddens me that it lacks people you can communicate with properly by speaking english. Everyones' English simply seems like its 'going down the drain' EEEEEEEEEK!!! I need to communicate with someone in this language that mostly describes my feelings :s which i cannot as there is no one here whom i can do that with :( sad
اقتباس:
المشاركة الأصلية كتبت بواسطة شمعة أمل
Guess What?!
Tomorrow is the day that I have an appointment scheduled with my professor to pour my heart out. Am I ready? NO!. I still have not finished the unfinishable assignment as i somehow seem to get a headache everytime i try to do so :p anyhoo I really do hope i A-ce this bloody consultation even if i'm dreading it
it seems that i have had 185 views, and forty people who apparantly read this. Weird! i haven't seem to have had any responses besides from two people.
People who know me, know that when I listen to music, I only listen to ‘quality’ music. Why be sinned for something that is not worth being sinned for I always say?
Believe it or not, the genres of music that attract me are Opera, Celtic and Country.
Did your jaw drop yet?
I may sound like a 60 something year old, but the lyrics are everything.
A song dear to my heart
Reba McEntire & Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CswHrm8k-4U
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
---------------------------------------------------
It breaks my heart every time I listen to this song, remember above when I said the lyrics mean everything to me? Well, the lyrics here do.
It describes something sensitive I have personally been through ‘mentally’. When I say mentally I mean:
No I am not married. Therefore, I have not been beaten by my partner -
To make a point VERY clear, I have NEVER been beaten -
But,
Have I been struck down and beaten emotionally? Yes
Have I been through such a terrible friendship experience that literally felt like someone had whacked me a knuckle sandwich? Yes
Three years down the line am I still affected by it? Yes
The thing is, friendships end, end very very very badly, but memories last forever.
Do I want my memories to be erased? Yes
A quote from the lyrics:
“Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid”
That is the aftermath of leaving something so bad from the beginning too late.
Genuine Advice I received from a precious someone a few days ago:
“Never try fixing someone, advise them once, advise them twice, advise three times, if nothing happens, just leave. It is not your job to ‘fix’ this person, it is their job.”
Thank you very much for the most valuable advise, I just wish I could show you how valuable it is to me xx
I entered the friendship trying to fix, kept on trying to ‘fix’ the entire time. Now I know, that was wrong, everything was wrong from the beginning. We were never meant to be.
My day was spent reading a research paper in the ironing room, its amazing how the sound of a washing machine can help you concentrate!
Note: Ive been trying to put a second post after my previous post, no not this one, another one which i need to copy-paste in here, but it won't publish :s i keep on getting an error page